my new LIIFE ;)

before i wrote this , my brain doesnt really work .. i tried , and tried until i made this :D i dont really know what to write , but my life does have many memories , which i cherish the most :)
ill start with , my new life .. i mean , im not that bad anymore :D im used to do things which are not that good and some things made me worst .. especially , TEMPTATION . urgh ! hate it , well im done with TROY . here's for BOYET :D buing ! :) should i go for him ? oh , comm'n ! i should :D he's the best among the rest :) i can't live without LOVE , i really cant .. SORRY , ABSENT MINDED JUUD AU KU , WALAI SULOD AKU BRAIN , THATS ALL THANK YOU ;(

should i hate my summer ? :))

here we are , spending much time with my HOUSE :D summer must be enjoyable , hanging out with friends , go over there , go over here , shop , beach ( not BITCH ) HAHA . for now , my summer is still boring . * boreeedddoooommm striiikeeess !! *woooooshhh ! * haha :D it's really also my fault because i dont exert much effort to have a nice summer LOL :) i just wanna stay at home , feel at home :)) chit chatting with friends , blogging , cleaning the house ( oh , really ? that would be a NO NO ) ahaha .. , texting and so on and so forth :D
im planning to have a summer classes in trigo (?) and chem .. but "axis" won't allow me :D because he doesn't want me to have new friends i might fall "daw" HAHA lol-woosh :D what the ! :) i wont , if he wont let me to , right ? how many times do i have to tell him , that i dont want anybody else ? >_< maybe i might get attracted to some guys , but it's very very far from the love i have for him :) DRAMA . toinks ! so much for that , because when i let MC ( zhai's bf) read my blog the told me that my blogs were all about TROY , TROY , TROY !! haha , im so churva
so , who's gonna with me this summer ? im so excited for those people who'll spend their time with me this summer :) im sure it will be fun , hanging out with me :D NO LIE . i want to go to the beach :)) i dont care if my skin will become dark :D (i dont really know what term should i use )
i think , he will not spend even a little bit of his time this summer :) -- i think he must , for me :) i would like to list down "what should i do to make my summer fun?" i'll post it later :)) maybe tomorrow , or Saturday :) im always online , im so webaddict :) that's my own term (laughs)
oh , by the way ! i will miss my sophomore classmates T.T , especially to JASON SANTOS who will migrate to Canada this april , i'll never see him later .. i think , hmmpf . and also to my beloved friendsters :D basyang , shai and many to mention :) and VERY especially to "AXiiS" LOL , it would be bad if we would not be classmates anymore this coming junior year T.T i hate it .. no need to worry , were having the same school this year ( i think , 95% ) LOL-woosh :)
oh , it's still 11:12pm here :) and i dont want yet to sleep , i woke up this evening at 8pm (tired of laughing with krizzia) HAHA , i'm so excited for tomorrow's happening :) i hope it would be happy :)
i'm not yet done ! i have something to tell you BLOG-woosh :) my "cm-crush" who happens to be my textmate . he always find ways just to communicate me , so sad .. i did ignored his calls :( my conscience can't stay high , he wants me to know that im important to him , he's concerned (always) , find time just to be with me (in texting rather) , i think he likes me :D LOL-woosh . yeah , swear :) he just asked me once .. it goes like this .. "will you give me a chance to show you how important you are to me ?" my guess ! i was "speechless" that time , dont even know what should i response to him , all i ever think is AXIS , i dont want axis to be hurt or whatever and i dont really have plans to give a little love for my "cm-crush" , im nervous , i dont want him to fell that i'm rejecting him .. not that bad , but i told him , that i still love my 'ex' , and he just gave me some advices , he just want to make friend with me LOL-woosh :D clearly stated , okay ? *axis , if you're reading my blog , dont get mad or whatever because i only gave my love to you :) only you * HAHA , peace readers , i also love you guys . it's not that easy to read a other's blog :) specially when it's very long and some were you know .. "wrong gramming" that's the time you'll laugh and put it in your mind that "his/her blog was fun !" LOL-woosh :D
should i take a rest now ? i spent more than an hour just for this one post :)
my answer would be a big "NO" .. well , i'd like to share some of my activities done this day :) and i'm proud of it ! :D

♥ washed the dishes
♥ brushed and washed my "wedge" sandals and sneakers xD
♥ hmm . the WORST : "sugu" over here , sugu over "there"
♥ i also slept 6pm and woke up 8pm :)
♥ ate my breakfast , lunch and supper :)
♥ did also take a bath :)
♥ hanged out with KRIZZIA :)
♥ text2 with axiis (luurvve it) ♥
♥ chit chatting with my friends in fb and plurk .
♥ blogging :)
♥ uploaded some pics :) old pics of axiis :D
( want to see it ? look below this post )
♥ think of him ( past , present and future ) LOL-woosh >_<

♥ and will now go to sleep after how many minutes :)

so , i should stop now ? hmmm :D did you like it ? ohh comm'n , i know :)) HAHA LMAO-woosh :) 'til here , thank you also for reading so , goodnight xp take care . God bless ♥♥♥ posted : april 1 , 2010 :) reason : bored and just want to blog LOL-woosh :D

♥ iii LUUURVE myself and YOOOUUU ♥

stolen pics :) luurvee eeeet !

AXIS' old PICS (some were with his cousins and siblings)

axis , when he was still young :) cute , right ?? HAHA can't imagine his face before :PP

this is his cousin (she's still alive so i used "is") HAHA lol , i also uploaded this because i was you know .. i like it !! ahaha ! marianne lei was so cute when she was still young :D

i think this pic is adorable but funny !! HAHA . :)) marla (mar's sis & troy's cous's) , troy and marianne :)

oh my !! troyaks was so "bulingit" haha !! kiddin' :P like it !

i am not sure if this is TROYaxis :) but i think so !! 50-50 nyahaha !! so cute :P

oh , i thinks his role was JOseph the dreamer !! haha joke :))


oh my !! he's cute but he was kinda , let me say .. "bulingit" haha :D piis troyaks


oh JOSEPH?? >_<> drama ! best actor :D cute ( nag pa cute man jud ) :D

troy martin gonzaga lozano with POOH :)

oh , recognition ?? with matching MEDAL huh ? haha (lamo) (applause)

haha :)) again . tim2 , ing2 and cookie :)

specially created by : mrs errolha lozano :D joke , haha !

kakie d i :)

my heart's bruised

♥ jv3p ii love ♥



i've been broken beyond repair :D -- matchiu's shirt

teardrops on my guitar

♥ jv3p ii love ♥





here we are again :)) oh , i find myself waiting for his text message again , its kinda tiring .. well , he texted me last March 29 and 30 but he didn't spend much time with me .. i only spent 10 min. in that 2 days . what the !! oh , comm'n .. what happened to him ? >_< i think he just dont love me no more , i miss him so much ! but all he did was to let me down and make me sad T.T .. i really dont know what to do .. all i can do is think of him , for the whole day ! LOL xD it's not funny actually .. i just don't want to be very sad just because of him .. how i wish i didnt love him from the start ..
Hyrum , my long time crush is the one who makes me laugh and makes me feel that im special >.< but i dont love him ! i need AXIS , only AXIS . ohhh , AXIS where are you now ? im worried . i love AXIS . no one can ever replace him in my heart :) so sad :( HAHA !
let's make a deal blog ! if he wont text me until April 5 , i won't mind him until april 10 :) its so easy , but its hard for me to do that . ive always told myself i wont text him back but everytime he did , i ran to the store and buy some load .. AHH . cry over there , cry over here ! im so sick ! but im still glad , im more brave than before :) thanks God .. 'til here :) HAHA

missing him T.T a lot ♥

i'm back >.< long time no blog , rawhr ! i don't have much time for this .. well , now i have :D summer is here :)) school is gone >_< eeehhh . i really miss him na :( i hate summer , but i love it too . actually , im not gonna miss him if he knows how to let me feel that he's always at my side . but he never did , damn love of mine ! he's face is so thick ! kiddin' :) he never texted me until now >:) i can't do anything .. i dont want to be the one to text him first ! or anything that i can pass to him what im trying to say .
o3 . 28 . 1o .. a crush of mine before , texted me :)) you know :)) i wont tell his name :D bla . bla .bla .. we had a wonderful and inspiring time together :D he's so cool :)) well , i'll give you a hint .. he's my churchmate !! HAHA , im so stupid !! i had a crush on him before , but i really do have also everytime i see him >.< but i think i must call it "infatuation" i don't think i'm falling for him but i'm happy everytime he make me laugh eventhough in texting :) i'm craving for someone's affection , because i don't feel that *toot* still loves me .D
i also remember , everytime i saw my "cm crush" im wishing that .. it goes like this "how i wish he is you' but now i realized , no one can replace *toot* in my heart . how could it be ? >_< im tired of being inlove with a wrong prince . im giving some special feelings with someone , whom i dont really love :(
because when i'm with him , i am thinking of YOU . you only :) why could he be irreplaceable ? >.< im missing YOU . grrr ! 'til here :) kakie dot . dot . dot .. ♥

feelings of mine

i'm feeling kinda sick ! kiddin' .. actually , i dont understand my feelings at all . im such a stupid girl !! urgh . it's like this , i am not used to be a loner , i mean not to be with him just for a single day or rather in texting >.< but now , it's really different . we don't communicate everyday . we maybe spend our time in texting but its not that long . i am not used to that , honestly . that's me :( i am selfish , when it comes to him . so damn ! i want to spend most of my time with him , but im just the one who wants it . i mean not all my time . im sick and tired of his attitude , i dont undersatand him >.< you know what's worst ??? SUMMER is coming !! i mean , its already summer . im just asking for his little time , but he can't give me . all i can do now , is think of him ! maybe im just missing him , its not that easy to miss someone like crazy .. maybe he did forget me LOL ! xp but it seems that he doesn't care about me .
well , he doesn't have to text me or call me . i'll adjust myself and face tha truth . that sometimes , people may change in times . i'm mad at him , but now i won't beg for his damn time ! i'll enjoy my summer , and try to forget that he existed !! i hate him so much , i dont care ;p i've got 2 inspiration , but his the 3rd one xD so i've got 3 inspiration :) kiddin' , that's all thank you :D