my heart's bruised

♥ jv3p ii love ♥



i've been broken beyond repair :D -- matchiu's shirt

teardrops on my guitar

♥ jv3p ii love ♥





here we are again :)) oh , i find myself waiting for his text message again , its kinda tiring .. well , he texted me last March 29 and 30 but he didn't spend much time with me .. i only spent 10 min. in that 2 days . what the !! oh , comm'n .. what happened to him ? >_< i think he just dont love me no more , i miss him so much ! but all he did was to let me down and make me sad T.T .. i really dont know what to do .. all i can do is think of him , for the whole day ! LOL xD it's not funny actually .. i just don't want to be very sad just because of him .. how i wish i didnt love him from the start ..
Hyrum , my long time crush is the one who makes me laugh and makes me feel that im special >.< but i dont love him ! i need AXIS , only AXIS . ohhh , AXIS where are you now ? im worried . i love AXIS . no one can ever replace him in my heart :) so sad :( HAHA !
let's make a deal blog ! if he wont text me until April 5 , i won't mind him until april 10 :) its so easy , but its hard for me to do that . ive always told myself i wont text him back but everytime he did , i ran to the store and buy some load .. AHH . cry over there , cry over here ! im so sick ! but im still glad , im more brave than before :) thanks God .. 'til here :) HAHA

missing him T.T a lot ♥

i'm back >.< long time no blog , rawhr ! i don't have much time for this .. well , now i have :D summer is here :)) school is gone >_< eeehhh . i really miss him na :( i hate summer , but i love it too . actually , im not gonna miss him if he knows how to let me feel that he's always at my side . but he never did , damn love of mine ! he's face is so thick ! kiddin' :) he never texted me until now >:) i can't do anything .. i dont want to be the one to text him first ! or anything that i can pass to him what im trying to say .
o3 . 28 . 1o .. a crush of mine before , texted me :)) you know :)) i wont tell his name :D bla . bla .bla .. we had a wonderful and inspiring time together :D he's so cool :)) well , i'll give you a hint .. he's my churchmate !! HAHA , im so stupid !! i had a crush on him before , but i really do have also everytime i see him >.< but i think i must call it "infatuation" i don't think i'm falling for him but i'm happy everytime he make me laugh eventhough in texting :) i'm craving for someone's affection , because i don't feel that *toot* still loves me .D
i also remember , everytime i saw my "cm crush" im wishing that .. it goes like this "how i wish he is you' but now i realized , no one can replace *toot* in my heart . how could it be ? >_< im tired of being inlove with a wrong prince . im giving some special feelings with someone , whom i dont really love :(
because when i'm with him , i am thinking of YOU . you only :) why could he be irreplaceable ? >.< im missing YOU . grrr ! 'til here :) kakie dot . dot . dot .. ♥

feelings of mine

i'm feeling kinda sick ! kiddin' .. actually , i dont understand my feelings at all . im such a stupid girl !! urgh . it's like this , i am not used to be a loner , i mean not to be with him just for a single day or rather in texting >.< but now , it's really different . we don't communicate everyday . we maybe spend our time in texting but its not that long . i am not used to that , honestly . that's me :( i am selfish , when it comes to him . so damn ! i want to spend most of my time with him , but im just the one who wants it . i mean not all my time . im sick and tired of his attitude , i dont undersatand him >.< you know what's worst ??? SUMMER is coming !! i mean , its already summer . im just asking for his little time , but he can't give me . all i can do now , is think of him ! maybe im just missing him , its not that easy to miss someone like crazy .. maybe he did forget me LOL ! xp but it seems that he doesn't care about me .
well , he doesn't have to text me or call me . i'll adjust myself and face tha truth . that sometimes , people may change in times . i'm mad at him , but now i won't beg for his damn time ! i'll enjoy my summer , and try to forget that he existed !! i hate him so much , i dont care ;p i've got 2 inspiration , but his the 3rd one xD so i've got 3 inspiration :) kiddin' , that's all thank you :D

love life ( ♥ jv3p iii love ♥ )

HAHA . i'm innocent when it comes to other things , but in love i'm not ♥ i love deeply , i don't play even if the guy deserves it . yes , i love but despite of loving someone i also get hurt and the WORST , when i cry . cry and cry that's one of the consequence i got in loving a guy deeply xD

i have an inspiration since last last year , it started december 2008 :) i forgot the exact date :D i have been loving him for more than 1 year , hmmpf . :D my feelings never changed , idk why . he's too lucky because he's my one and ONLY xp LOL !

actually , he was my lover before but for now , friends only xp i mean , more than FRIENDS or let me say SPECIAL FRIENDS . i think the name doesn't matter it's the love we exerted for each other .

sad to say , he loves to hurt me >.<>.<>

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♥ first day ♥

♥ hello . i call this "first day" because it's my first day og blogging :) my friend showed me her blogs , i was amazed and want to make too .. that's why i have this now xD
well .. im kinda bored , as always (sigh) . i went home early today , because we had our exam today since yesterday , but not all the subjects we took up , it's actually 2 subjects rather .. so we only used 3 hours i think , to answer the 2 subjects :) because BIOLOGY is hard ! i almost consumed 1 & 3o minutes to answer it :) after the exam , i went to different assigned teachers to let my clearance signed . i did not able to finish yet , i'll continue tom xD